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2010-12-11T00:09:00.001-08:00

Hi blog,

How are you doing ever since i left some scribblings of the most memorable event in my life on your wall 6 months ago?

it just popped my mind to check you out.

and i realised it has been 6 freaking months ever since that terrified accident.

it hasn't stopped me from swearing and cursing you.

Wow, time really flies.

6 months doesnt change anything much. i'm still the same. still living without the front teeth.

Hopefully i will be able to have some implants 6 months after today. :)

NS, 1 year 10 months.

2 months to ORD.

Naise.

2010-06-10T00:25:00.000-07:00

I just realised that its not the trend to keep a blog anymore.

Nowadays people use livejournal, tumblr and maybe some others that i dont know of.

i'm lagging behind this blogging technology and yes, this blog is super old already.

leaving the blog skin the same like for years?

i'm just lazy to change and sometimes lazy to write in this blog.

Today is 10th June, it means it has been one month ever since the bike accident.

oh well, today is the payday as well. haha.

which means i've rested at home for one month and which also means, its time to go back to camp very sooonnn. :(

Life has been different at home. having brunch almost every day.

waking up at 10am (earliest) and 12pm(latest) everyday.

i wonder how i'm gg to adapt back to the normal lifestyle when i'm back in camp next week.

Many have enquired about what i'm gonna do when i return back to camp.

i'm pretty much useless now.

Alot of things are gg through my mind, i cant simply spell out everything here.

I look perfectly fine now and doesnt seem to be someone who had an accident one month ago.

which remind me constantly that i have been very very lucky actually.

I still rmb the first day when i was warded, i have been told by the nurse that theres some bleeding in the brain and i have been isolated for close observation.

It totally freaked me out, having the thoughts that its the end and a full stop to my life.

But i just want my teeth back. and its not gonna be back very soon.

i got to wait for a couple of months at least.

and its gg to be very expensive.

right now i have to use my own money to pay for all my dental appts.

consultation with a prof already cost $63.

medicine cost another $18.

conclusion: if i'm not gg to get the claims back, i'm not serving anymore.

Am i gonna ride the bike again?

Depends.

Cos i dont trust it anymore.

2010-06-07T00:29:00.000-07:00

2010-05-23T22:05:00.001-07:00

i'm losing the tan and im becoming whiter.

cos of all the time that i spent at home.

doing what you may ask.

i'm hooked on prison break recently and im gg to finish season 2.

its really damn nice with all the unexpected twists.

in a way or another, i think my life is screwed for now.

alot of things i cant really do.

i just realise i can't eat a burger, i would have to use fork and spoon to eat that.

weird isnt it, but i need to get use to this for at least a few months before i get my teeth back to where its supposed to be.

i would like to be out there in the sun again.

maybe when my skin recovers fully. :)

2010-05-13T06:06:00.000-07:00

i dont know if anyone will be reading this.

But i just really feel like blogging on my recent bike accident.

Its really scary and i would have to say that im really damn damn damn lucky.

My own friend saw me flying out of the bike from his rear mirror he also freak out.

i thought im dreaming and all these aint true.

but it start to be more and more realistic when i feel the pain.

i'm kind of disfigured now due to the wounds around my mouth.

My front row of teeth is gone.

whenever it comes to eating, i will take small spoon size and slide it into my mouth.

then i will tilt my head upwards to prevent it from dripping out.

life is really difficult without the front row of teeth.

My right shoulder is suspected to have some tear in the tendons/ligaments.

Even when im bathing i would sometimes "OUCH" in pain.

But on the thought that im so lucky to be still alive, i tell myself that all these pains should be nothing to me.

i should be strong and focus on recovery.

and all my friends are awaiting for my arrival back to trg.

i seriously hope there will be no scars left on my face.

and hope my teeth will be back.

But when such things happen, it serve as a lesson learnt.

Better be extra careful whenever you drive on the road.

no matter whether you're on bike/car.

Thanks to all those who visit me when im in hospital!

Dont worry about me, i'll be strong and take whatever that is coming.

2010-04-30T20:09:00.001-07:00

I'm a certified SAF LIFEGUARD!

Don't worry. Keep Calm. im here to save you! :D

2010-03-28T02:34:00.001-07:00

Life's been GOOD.

every morning you run and sprint like crazy.

Overtaking each other like F1 Race.

Panting like there's no tomorrow.

you get so tired that you feel like sleeping every noon, esp after you ate your lunch.

You hear the same old thing every morning.

asking us to run faster, try to hit 3.45 for 1.2km.

and yes, the wild boar ran 3.48.

any faster, the wild boar got to roll.

serious, sprinting is no joke. try sprinting 6 X 400m and you will feel the pain

SPRINTING KILLS.

and my friend introduce this song which i find it motivational.

it starts with,

" Sometimes you just feel tired,

you feel WEAK.

And when you feel WEAK,

you feel like you just gonna just give up.

But you gotta search within you,

you gotta find that inner strength and just pull that SHIT out of you,

and get that motivation to not GIVE UP,

and not be a QUITER,

no matter how bad you wanna just fall flat on your face. "

ok, i only like this part and guess whats this song. heh.

last week of training and this shall end.

YAY . :D

2010-03-05T22:32:00.000-08:00

At last...

I waited for this day for dammmmnnnn looonnnngg pleassee.

Those moments that we pulled through took us alot of patience, endurance and perserverance.

But its lucky that we never give up.

and for once in my life i experienced my own limits being pushed to the max and even further.

I must say through this rigorous training actually make me realise how resistant i am, not giving in to any temptations of giving up.

There's a saying, "Its all right to be shag, but just dont show that shag face of yours and people will respect you."

HAHAHA. thats how we gonna encourage our own troopers.

Im finally stepping to the next chapter of my army life. YAY. :)

2010-02-19T06:31:00.000-08:00

Happy CNY to all!

Every year CNY is the same to me, im done with visiting on the first day before noon.

cos every year i always visit my grandparents and thats all.

im so bored at home that i went to run/gym/swim on sun, mon, tues, wed.

blame it on some family conflict that my dad have over at my dad's side.

im used to it. :)

Went over to qiaowei house for visiting again!

and yes, last time that we went is 2 years back.

i repeat, TWO YEARS.

that moment feel like ytd lah, wth time really pass v v v v v v fast.

and yes, i will ORD v v v v v v soon and will resume studying.

Looking at how others sacrifice their time for their studies make me feel sad for them.

but at the same time feel afraid of how im gonna do so in the future, knowing that i will be like them one day too.

Ironically, i still havent decide what im gonna study yet. argh.

Anyway, nowadays when i meet some friends that i've not seen them for ages, they will pause and stun for a few secs before recognising me.

they must be kidding. haha.

i've not changed alot anw.

now my life for the next 2 months or so is to run and run and run for upcoming road relay competition.

Nothing to do? Just run.

and eugene see please dont run too fast in the armour road relay. LOL

2010-02-08T05:51:00.000-08:00

Wow, time really flies.

My last entry was 2 months ago. and my course still havent start yet.

Now my course has ended!! Hsiong but did alot of interesting and exciting stuffs.

Its my birthday today and the feeling of turning 20 this year just isnt great.

Initially i thought ever since im in army, i didnt have chance to catch up with all my friends in my social circle.

I was so so afraid that they might have forgotten about me. lol.

But I did receive birthday wishes texts and from facebook as well.

THANKS TO ALL.

Each year my bday wish just get simpler.

This year a simple text is enough to let me know that we are still friends and keeping in contact.

Which is very touching if you think about it. LOL.

ok la, must thank the facebook for having such a great application.

I realised that time pass really really fast.

I went through so much and i must admit that i learnt alot of things so far.

Will be finally getting my Sergeant Rank on 5th March parade.

Wow, finally like after soooooo long.

Course has came to an end.

What's next?

Its time to train for upcoming competition.

So everyday we would just run & run.

ok, life for me for the next few months or so would be great. :))

Its time for me to carve out a schedule so that i can cater to running, swimming and gymming every week.

WOOOOHHH.

Healthy lifestyle thats the best.

Actually army life is not bad.

Anyone want to consider signing on?

LOL!

2009-12-13T03:55:00.000-08:00

8 more weeks.

2 more months.

And i will see black ranks instead of white ranks.

Tough? Yes it will be.

Shag? Definitely.

But I only know these 2 months gonna fly very fast.

Just keep looking forward to CNY and my b'day.

And im gonna take the JUNGLE HAT.

2009-12-10T23:05:00.000-08:00

At last.

2009-11-20T03:00:00.000-08:00

Lets take a look at the no. of runs i have taken so far, including the All parks runs in army so far.

1. Fort Canning Park 14.4Km

2. Nike Human Race 10Km

3.New Balance Real Run 15Km

4. Pasir Ris Park 21Km

5. Changi Beach 29Km

Next Up will be 42.195Km on 6 Dec.

Long distance running is not about speed, but all about endurance.

its like seeing whose muscle will CUI first.

And so far running in army is rather stressful for me.

But peer pressure keeps me going. :D

Lets hope standard chart wont be that painful as last year's.

Gambatte!

2009-11-13T05:03:00.000-08:00

Results for New Balance Real Run 15km

http://realrun.sg/results09/15Km_Category15MO.html

So with a timing of 1 hour and 11 mins, is it considered good/bad?

Honestly i also dont know.

but im stepping one step closer to my goal.

2009-11-07T23:34:00.001-08:00

BOOMZ!

wow, its really long since i updated this blog.

Its kind of dead now anyway.

I bet no one will read this.

anyway i just had this sudden urge to type out whatever is in my mind.

Im doing good so far in army, not dead yet, still alive and waiting for more to come.

I realise so far there are many times when my mind keep telling me, " Take a break Eric/ Give up now or you will suffer even more!"

But the funny thing is, my body doesnt listen to my mind, instead it will automatically carry on with what it is doing.

-.-

People often say mind over body mind over body, i guess for me is body over mind.

Or it could be that i always do mind fcking, until negative becomes positive.

Last week is another nightmare.

Whenever training is tough, we will always be so shag but we will pull through in the end.

And the funny part is when we look back to what we have done, how shag our friends are, the memories are really worth it.

Too bad i cant post what we have done here. haha.

And i guess call sign for me shall be" WILD BOAR" from now on.

And to all those who are in Uni, exams are starting soon so GOOD LUCK to all of you.

time really flies.

3 more months to the end of course.

You never know how ZAI my family is, two brothers born to be RECCE!

2009-09-06T07:14:00.000-07:00

Hell Week is over!
So let me just enjoy the other one month in bike course before training starts again.
Training is really tough here, its crazy.
I dont mind being tekan like crazy, but im just afraid of the load that weigh down on my knees.
Walking with such a heavy load sometimes make me worry that I will become shorter one day!
Just gonna hope that I will incur no injuries during the course.
The load that we are going to carry is up to 35kg.
Crazy.
My bunk mate randomly complained about sth.
He just said, " Why is life so unfair to us here?"
And I replied to him, " Life is only unfair when we compare it with OTHERS!!"
Dont even know how I manage to reply him with that sentence.
With that, I shall keep myself motivated till i get my JUNGLE HAT :)

First in Last Out, Recce!

And of course i wont forget whats told to us on that day,
"Remember, we are chosen to be one of the 32 to be second to none, to be the Elites, Reconnaissance."

2009-08-22T06:06:00.000-07:00

Hello EVERYONE!
This blog is really dying or worse, i think it die-ed already.
Com is down for the past one month or so, fnially got everything fixed with upgrades and a new monitor. COOL.
All thanks to xiuren.
Sispec life has been over and now is another break for us.
Next up is a more challenging path for me.
On that very day when we know our posting, everyone tap on my shoulder and says, " Eh, Take care take care"
Im Posted to Armour recce.
Training will be tough for the next 3 to 5 months or so.
So i can imagine myself suffering out there in the jungle.
Sispec life has been fun though. Doing all sorts of things that we can never imagine.
Still remember theres a time when photos of NUS/ NTU Orientation Camps were all over the facebook.
And we were saying, " They enjoy their orientation camps while we enjoy our field camps. zzz"
Time really flies and soon it will be the end of the year!
Lets hope this year will end well for everyone. :)

2009-06-11T21:39:00.000-07:00

POP lor!

Finally out of Tekong! YAY!

During these 8 weeks or so, I learnt alot of things.

Actually, the reason why I wanted to get out of tekong so much is because:

Its too far and the journey took like more than 1.5hours from my house
We have to take ferry once we reached there
Not only that, I have to take a Tonner (like those big trucks) all the way inside to a ulu place called "The Rocky Hill Campsite"
Transportation always screwed up and we ended up waiting for nothing

But come to think about it, Army life is quite good anyway.

It may be tough, but we always say, " tough times dont last, tough men do!"

2009-06-05T22:33:00.000-07:00

Meet up with the RE perm staffs on 300509 Night.

(Its right after the KTV with Temp RE. -.-)

We ate at a German Restaurant. Look at what I ordered. haha. Its chicken breast + Salad + Mash Potato. Wooohhh.

And they shared about their work and love life, so interesting and beautiful.

Seriously, Im kind of jealous of their life right now. :P

2009-05-30T22:12:00.000-07:00

Ex RE KTV outing on 300509

Ex RE Temp outing on 230509

2009-05-30T20:40:00.000-07:00

Think my blog is abit boring up till now.
Paiseh ar, ah bing ge very busy. ONLY free on Saturdays. -.-
On different weekends i met up with different groups of friends.
Every weekend i heard of how their lifes are, how fun their life is.
I have nothing to share but only about NS life.
Sometimes i will find it boring to share to others of my NS life too.
(Cos I think they have heard alot about it alr, haha)
But not bad la, there are quite alot of amusing stuffs inside.

This week is a great week for me.
I got the only chance to book out on thursday and have a long weekend.
I was so so so touched when i received my payslip for my bonus from Recruit Express.
I was like, " Eh? how come the envelope so thick one. "
haha. then i realised my dear team mates put a card inside, asking me to come back and visit them someday.

And i went back and there i stood, they took more than 3 seconds to recognise who i am.
They just thought im just a random person looking for a job lah.
They all said my face slim-med down alot.
Become more like a man now. zzz.
haha.

Will upload photos soon.

I seriously think that i have a weird body.
And that puzzled alot of my friends in army too.
They just cant find a link between my fats on my stomach and my 2.4km timing.
The only answer they can find is,
" Maybe my body is highly efficient until that it still have so much reserves left."

No wonder i cant slim down so easily. Damn it!
And its abit irritating when more and more people come to me and ask,
" Eh, how come you so fat still can run so fast ar?!"

My answer to them is, " Aiya, fats provide more energy mah. "

One more week and we will be FREE~~ (for 2 weeks)

2009-05-24T00:13:00.001-07:00

Ultimately, Optimism helps alot.
2 more weeks to POP!!!
:)))

2009-05-01T23:47:00.000-07:00

Learnt something during the 2 weeks confinement.

I have learnt:

Auto wake up at 0500 hours
Pull the bedsheet and coil the mosquito net every morning
Keep the corridors clean at all times
Eat finish your meal within 10 minutes
Do laundry every night
From place to place, we fly

Something i heard from the officer which i think it makes some sense.

Discipline is all about doing something that is not natural to you.

For Honour and Glory, it is time we become men!

2009-04-12T22:32:00.000-07:00

My last day at RE.

:'(

My Mentor. Guess what she doing? haha. she cant accept the fact that shes older than me like 6 yrs? and shes trying to act young in the picture. LOL.

Shes the interviewer who call me down for interview. haha. Pretty right?

Without her I wont be working there. and she say im impressive during the interview!! haha.

Just some random shot. haha.

My Manager! I can say shes very alert and sharp. shes know exactly whats happening ard the office. Even when im not focusing and emo-ing, she knows it. haha. (she can read my mind la!) >.<

Lisa LIM!! :) Can be my sister alr. lol. she brought me to gym. can you believe it?Think shes fitter than me. It will be damn scary when she hit you. hahaha.

And shes really like my sister. Help me prepare for SMU interview, give me advices and tips as well. Thanks huh!

PJC - The 3 of us are from PJC. haha. Gossips and gossips together off and on work. Its pretty usual. haha.

My team mates! Our office consist of six teams. and we work as a team to hit certain sales. and i usually help them to source for CVs and everything. :)

Gary Lim! Hes my Ex-mentor. Can say I have learnt alot from him. The way he edit resumes is really fast. Guess i pick up from him as well. HAHA. And apparently think he slack, thats why im being transferred to the team.

If not he will have sales up to $2ooo every month!! Cos whatever i close, the sales will go to him. hahaha. *Heart pain for him.*

on the last day of work, they brought me to Keppel Bay to chill.

Oh man, i have never been there before. The Scenery there is really beautiful.

My last chill out session with them. haha.

And thats all the permanent Guy Staffs in both offices. haha. Its fun really crapping with them. haha.

And Not Forgetting the Temp Island as well. haha.

And im going to say goodbye to all of you soon.

Tml will be my enlistment day.

Hope to strive for a change in NS. Hopefully after that 2 yrs, I will become more mature and fit?

haha.
Went out with my loved ones before i enlist.
I have nothing to worry about going into NS.

im being optimistic, love it since im gg to go in anyway.

At least theres sth to occupy my mind, so that i can forget about other stuffs.

Just listen to instructions, do what they say and make new friends.

its not that bad after all.

The only thing that i worry is the breaking point of friendship with all my friends.

and what lixian said to me is true i guess,

" In this way, you will know who your true friends are. "

And i already know who they are in my heart. Goodbye my beloved friends!

haha.

See you all soon in two years time.

OR just two weeks?!

2009-04-07T07:57:00.000-07:00

My best achievement for the Month Of MARCH!!

haha.

In any case if you are wondering, the magnets actually stand for the contract cases we close for that month.

So for every Contract that we close, we actually put up a magnet onto our "score board"

So cool, i closed 8 contracts.

I nearly closed at 10. If not i will actually break the record there. :(

haha.

Im leaving RE soooonnnn!!

and my colleagues really treat me like their own brother.

They are really nice people. Help me out in all stuffs.

And I just received a phone call from SMU for an interview.

And that person told me its because someone pull out last minute, so they are finding a replacement for tomorrow's slot.

and the next availability slot for interview will only be on Tuesday.

I will alr be chiong-ING in NS by then. -.-

Everyday I see my own candidates going down for an interview.

Now it feels even better to be shortlisted for interview myself!

Then my colleagues all give me good advices.

Lent me a suitcase, even want to lend me his suit as well.

I will really miss them when i leave the company.

I have no worries for future job search alr. haha

Cos i am already invited to join back this company any time when i graduate from University. :)))

hahaha.

Good luck to myself for tomorrow then.

2009-04-04T23:24:00.000-07:00

oh man, its been a long time since i blogged.

Outing with the RE Temp island!

this is taken like a long time ago.

4 more working days and i will most probably not be able to see them that often anymore.

haha.

Left with a few more days to enlistment.

time really flies..

and im looking forward to it.

But what makes me sad is I will lose contacts with all my friends very easily.

See you guys in two years time then.

This blog is gonna be inactive soonnn... :)

2009-03-10T07:44:00.000-07:00

The new path of life has alr opened for most of us.
Got back the A level results
So it actually determine what we will be in future.
Im very glad im working under RE, doing recruitment currently.
I have colleagues from all types of faculty.
Haha, I just have to like ask them during work, what they study and their opinions and comments.
and i can use the monster to search for people who graduate from NUS/ NTU/ SMU and see what they study and what they are doing now.
Like that can know the job prospects better.
haha
if you want me to do a search for me, haha just tell me.
i wil see whether im free first then i search randomly. lol

2 permanent staffs, colleagues of mine just left. :(
and last sat was a fun day out with them
went to topone (again) with them.
think theres a generation gap, was stoning most of the time inside there.
They are singing some really old songs which i nv heard before. lol
and im being treated for dinner and drinking as well.
will upload pics soon.
Now if i dont know anything about Uni stuff, i just have to ask my colleagues.

Lastly, from my experience so far, results dont matter much actually.
it doesnt matter what degree you get, which degree you got from, which Uni you are from,
as long as you are good, companies will still want YOU

So people with bad results, please dont be disheartened.
A level cert is nothing actually. it doesnt mean your future job careers will be sucky just because of A level result.
it doesnt mean you will do good even if you grad from good unis
Attitude is still the most important factor.
A good results cant get you anywhere with a sucky attitude.
But with good attitude, no worries. all companies will snatch you actually.
I have seen alot alot of ppl from Private Unis, Overseas unis, they are stil doing well now!
so cheeers, be optimistic. as long as you are determined, there will certainly be a path for you in life.

Move on~

2009-03-01T05:14:00.000-08:00

Shiying birthday celebration on Saturday, 1st March 2009

Woke up early to reach TOP ONE KTV at 11am.

its qiaowei idea to ask shiying to come at 1pm. haha.

and we spent 2 hours plus to decorate the room with balloons and photos of her.

Got alot of my face up there which i dont know when it was taken as well.

and shiying reached at 1+. (shes late. haha)

so when she reach, we sing birthday song for her.

then chay keep spamming the (dont know what).

so all the smoke come out. i think he spammed like 5 times.

Damn funny man, the whole room is filled with smoke and in the end we have to open the door to let the smoke out.

So diffusion undergoes and the whole place outside our room is smoky in the end as well.

HAHA.

we sang until 6pm and headed for steamboat.

Had some fun while talking as well. hahaha.

in the end, we have to play zhong zi mi ma to let the losers to take those balloons home one by one.

haha, sien got 5 balloons to take home?

oh nono, its 3. got saved by qiao wei.

and i realise its important to keep all the photos that we have taken.

we can see how we change as each year pass by whenever we meet up to celebrate birthday.

haha.

cool man. we are all GROW-ING.

Its my first time singing at top one.

its tiring to stay there from 11am to 6pm.

but the only good news is we pay only $20 net!

haha, ok.

Once again,

Happy birthday to Tay Shiying. ;)

2009-02-28T20:46:00.000-08:00

These are photos taken during celebration with 4E peeps!

Well, this birthday celebration is planned by Kahkian and its meant to be a surprise for me.

Didnt blog much that time cos no pics, hard to describe.

Ok, venue is a the HongKong Cafe.

Kahkian said he want to meet me for dinner on 7/2.

Then its quite weird that he met me but booked such a long table.

i was alr suspecting sth is gg on when im being directed by one of the staff there to one corner.

But kahkian keep asking me to go to the opposite side of hongkong cafe.

That time i was thinking, there are so many empty seats around.

haha.

and true enough, he asked me to open the MENU and i realised a birthday card in it.

then i recognised jalene's handwriting.

After which they popped up from behind and sing birthday song. HAHA.

its quite a good surprise anw.

I tot they are really not free on that day man. lol.

After the dinner at hongkong cafe we went to the Crew Room for KTV + Pub.

and they are the guys who celebrate my birthday on the dot 12am!

cool. THANKS GUYS ANW.

and i realised there are alot of feb babies.

haha. We just celebrate Shiying's birthday yesterday.

Wil update when pics arrive. LOL.

We are looking at some of the pics taken like last year.

and we realised that all of us had changed alot!

(of course, we become more good looking)

and im serious, all of us are really growing. :)

As my colleagues are telling me, " xiao didi, eat more ok. you are still growing!"

and we are turning 20 soon. thats fast hur?

ok, results will be out SOON. woohooo.

2009-02-27T05:16:00.000-08:00

Heres some pictures taken during the birthday celebrations

didnt manage to get the photos taken with 4E.
TIMOTHY. what happened?

LOL.

all right, work is really damn fun for me now.

Cos i got things done easier and faster. so most of the time now im actually slacking and chit chatting. hahaha

i felt very very rejected this month. an emo month for me. :(

i have 3 CROs and i think many many CRIs.

CRO: Candidate Reject Offers

CRI: Candidates reject interviews

I talked to candidates more in the interview room.

There is this guy whom i met, just ORD, ffinished diploma study and waiting to go into SMU

the first question i asked him was,

" Why not you give me a brief introduction of yourself first?"

He replied confidently, " Actually i didnt do well in PSLE, so i went to technical stream. but i went on to N level and O level. Finally managed to finish my diploma. Now im waiting to go into SMU. Im Applying for the lee kong chian scholarship too."

i was stunned. So i actually spent some time to chit chat with him, asked him whats the criteria to apply for scholarship and etc etc.

HAHA, those who are interested come and ask me. then i wil share.

And his GPA is 3.37/ 4

and he got into SMU business!

Guys be optimistic!

Results wil be out next friday i think. haha

All the best man, dont be stressed out. haha

2009-02-15T06:46:00.000-08:00

havent been blogging lately.
Guess you guys have been see-ing my face (RE temp celebration photo) for the 1st post for quite some time.
Anw, need to update on my birthday celebration
4E gave me a surprise on 7/2. its quite well plann i shall say
except for some minor things i found it weird on that day.
anw, im quite shocked actually. quite a number came down.
jalene, Tracy, Chingsian, ZhiXuan, Bingxiang, Weilun, Timothy, Kahkian, Dongtai, Ludi.

and THANKS kahkian for organising a surprise for me. nearly tear-ED.
Great.

Next is 2E clique and sien yongjia shiying and qiaowei
they celebrate my b'dae on the day itself!
but also celebrating others, like yongjia, runjie and ben as well.
haha. Had dinner and played some cards and had some fun!
Great day man.
will upload with the pics when they sent me.

Cant believe i spend my time at home during V day.
well, i went to buy flowers for all people in my team office.
and one rebut and tell me, " you dont have others to give to right, then give to us..hahaha"

argh. well. happy V day to all. ;)
will upload photos soon. :)

2009-02-06T22:46:00.001-08:00

RE Temp island celebrated my b'dae on 5/2 Friday! :)

Haha had a fun time with them after work on friday.

Friday is really a shag day for me. i just feel very very very tired

i need rest badly. >.<

and the temp island helped me to celebrate my birthday.

Even though its not my b'dae yet. haha

and yay. They bought me a New Urban Male bag.

and ever since the session at the Crew Room, they have been asking me to organise KTV outing.

i didnt know those perm staffs are that happening as well.

In office you see them so serious, but after work they can be super wild.

Ten dollars club. anyone heard of it before?

its introduced to me by them. i dont know what it is.

But they told me theres free flow of shark fin and drinks.

(of course the shark fin is fake)

haha. and per participant is Just TEN DOLLARS NET.

=OOO

Eric is so looking forward to his birthday on Sun. :)

haha!

2009-02-03T07:01:00.000-08:00

`4E

2009-01-31T17:30:00.000-08:00

Hey,
My birthday is in a week time.
8th Feb '09
people asked me, what do i wish for my birthday?
i always tell them, "My Friends' presence will be my present. :)"
As long as someone celebrate with me, im contented. =D haha
im getting closer with my colleagues in my office.
I think they are really kaypo sometimes.
but sometimes its useful.
haha, i almost cried when they surround me, giving me support.
asking me not to give up even if i fail now. Awww :'(

Went to Jalene's house on Fri night for bai nian.
we tonned at her house 2 years ago. haha.
alot of people flood her house that day.
but most went back home early.

wah, the 4E girls are really good in singing.

didnt know they can sing so well. haha.

so its left with me, chingsian, kahkian, tim, jalene and cass

think we are mad. we sang until 3 plus in the morning.
and after that, we talked until morning ard 7am?
by that time i alr knocked out liao, have to sleep. lol.

Friday isnt a Good day for me. Sometimes singing can really relieve our emotions.
Whenever we are down, songs help us to EMO.
hahaha. Sometimes the lyrics fit what we are feeling.
Kahkian is the most pro in analysing the lyrics of songs. LOL.
and after singing, we will feel much better.

and of course, got to thank Jalene for inviting us to her house for bai nian. haha.
its a bad day but a great time at her house.
Thanks Jalene!

P.S: Jalene ar, better learn your lesson and not to commit the same mistake again!
She asked me really funny questions on msn. Cant stop laughing man.
ahahaha. dont worry, i wont say out one. :P

Results will be out on 27th Feb i heard. its a Friday.
Hope that Friday will be a good day for me. :)

2009-01-26T14:00:00.000-08:00

First Day of CNY

its boring.
cant do any visitings cos my grandpa passed away.
Stayed at home and changed the blogskin.
Decided to put up the links thinking it might be easier for others to blog hop.
haha.
tts including me as well. LOL.
i managed to find some links, those who want me to link you please do tell me.
Its either i cant find your links or you have been changing links too often that i dont know which one is your Current one.
haha.
Life now really sucks. i spend like most of the day at RE.
Running about with resume, checking mails, interviewing people, calling people.
And i realise when i talked to people who are earning alot of money, i will get super turned off.

"May i know whats your Current Salary?"
"$5000"
"What about your Expected Salary then?"
"Hmmm, At least $5500"
"Ok, i will keep a lookout for you then, BYEBYE!"

i got very turned off from people who are expecting such a high increment in such a bad economy.
My dad in the past earn a max of $3K.
And the money is enough for survival. i guess thats what i cant accept.
ahaha, and thats proven to be true.
My mentor is like saying,
"ERIC! how come you like to talk to people who earn $2K to $3K per month?"
Exactly.
Because they belong to the same level status as me.
and i would love to help them to find a job, not those who are earning $5K. HA

Alot of temps had left/are leaving.
Indeed friends go in and out of your life, but only true friends will leave a footprint in your heart.

Anw
Once again,
Happy Chinese New year to everyone!

2009-01-17T21:16:00.000-08:00

Hello everyone. Haha. quite a long time since i blogged.
Ytd we celebrate xiuren's b'dae.
the last time i saw them was during prom night?
haha.
xiuren, arent you glad im posting this?

HAPPY BIRTHDAY XIUREN!

And some had their new haircut for the year 2009!
haha, its weiwen and jon. they look funny. i think i will look even funnier when i enlist. LOL.
and theres alot of super hilarious NS Stories from them.
Apart from that, theres also ghostly encounters from jon.
wah, so cool man.
Didnt know NS so exciting one. haha.
slowly, one by one, all the guys will go in and have the haircut.
i think by Mid year June, no girls will meet up with us.
Cos we will be talking about our NS experience then. haha

i realised i havent been really doing what im supposed to do.
when i heard their life in NS, it made me scared man.
die, i gonna do sth about it.

work at recruit express is getting more and more interesting!
it so challenging that you have to remember the person's name in your head,
and when the order comes, you have to shout their names before others grab it.
you got to be fast, sharp and alert
precisely this is what i want to be geared towards before i go into NS.
Good.
A level results will be coming out ssoooonnn.
lets pray for good results man. lol.

2009-01-03T21:53:00.000-08:00

wow. a long break for me.
these two weeks, i only worked for 4 days.
theres so much holidays lah. >.<
and i spent alot of time catching up with usual clique, sec sch friends etc
went Kbox with jalene and dongtai on friday
Omg man, i think its been 2 years that i really see and talk to jalene.
2 years back, we went k singing as well.
and you know, its been 2 years since we sing tgt.
Time really flies. -.-
and we went to her house. oh man, still rmb we went for her b'dae party 2 years back.
where its more like a flour party to me. haha.
still rmb theres a flour war, everyone started to throw flour.
and when i reach her house, i was like, " wah, 2 years nv come alr. "
abit huai lian ar.
haha. cool man. had steamboat at jalene house. her house got KTV as well!
THANKS JALENE!

and fri itself is kahkian's b'dae.
its always the usual date that most ppl forget its his b'dae
becos ppl are more fascinated with sch reopening than rmb-ing his b'dae
but this year is an exception i guess?
haha.

went to celebrate his b'dae ytd.
its eat and eat session
walao, i really got to stop man.
exercise at 5am every morning will start tml.
if not, i will be GG-ed

Next up would be chinese new year.
i hope recruit express wont have so many breaks again. -.-
its breaking the momentum man
what can you do for two days for the week?

and oh yeah, somebody share with me this quote which i think its pretty true.
He said, "you dont have a gf ?!"
"yea" i replied.
as usual, they always give me the shocking face.
BUT , this time round, he replied to me,
"dont worry, theres no right people, but only right time."

quite true hur?
haha. ok. bye.

2008-12-28T02:16:00.000-08:00

These are some of the temp staffs in our office.

And i come from the lousiest education background among the them.

haha. The director print out a table that keep record of the deals we close.

and include in the schools that we are from. >.<

im like, for what man.

Beside me are both ORD guys.

One is from RJC, the other is from VJC.

Two girls are from MJC, the other from TJC.

and told you im the youngest male there. -.-

super sian. they are telling me lots of NS story.

its either i heard NS stories from the guys,

or Boyfriend stories from the girls.

Even for lunch time, it has become normal that i eat with a company of working adults(ladies)

Cos our office has so few males!

and wth, everyday they talked about their boyfriends.

and i would hang out with different people, and they would ask me the same question.

" How old are you?"

"Do you have a girlfriend?'

and the same old conversations:

" ARE YOU SERIOUS? you dont have a girlfriend?"

"Are you very shy?"

" Or are you not tactful enough?"

"I help you matchmake la. "

"Its quite impossible for you not to have one."

" Or is it you dont want?"

I dont even know how to answer them. LOL.

and they are really irritating. Everyday they would ask me the same type of questions.

And woohoo.

I have closed one deal.

Great. More will come. :)

2008-12-21T03:25:00.000-08:00

HELLO everyone.
A very quick update.
Work is stressful, frustrating and disappointing.
Guess im still new and inexperienced.
its really frustrating when you send 4 Resumes while the other just send one resume
in the end, that guy close a deal.
for the resumes that i sent in, none being shortlisted for an interview.
And its even disappointing when my candidates are shortlisted for an interview,
BUT THEY ARE FAJ.
that means Found A Job.
-.-
and i guess i cant really do runnings now.
Cos when i reach home, its already 8+pm.

I have one candidate who went down for interview.
Results will be known tml!
i PRAY that he will not BE FAJ by then.
please, let me close one this month. haha.

And anyone who studied principles of account (POA),
wanna find a 3 - 4 months job.
please call me/ sms me.
i have one opportunity that req only O level POA.
the pay is even higher than mine. -.-
its $1.1k to $1.2k per month.

The disappointing part is im helping people to find a job that pays them even higher than me.
and it boils when i tried to sell the job to them.
Like a job that pays $7 per hour.
and they told me they felt its too little.
i was like, "Suan le, i rather you be jobless having zero income."
$7 per hour also dont want.
Hope you stay unemployed FOREVER.
lol.
Christmas is coming.
phew, can rest already. haha. YEAH!

2008-12-13T19:48:00.000-08:00

PROM NIGHT PICS :D

ANT! 07s20

The usual study mates.

Huiting.07s20

Aloysius.My pae friend! :)

Weiwen.Me. Junjie.07s20

Jamie. India Trip Friend.

Weiliang.Childhood Friend.

Weiwen.07s20.2E

Ziying.PW mate

Kengyang.07s20

Double Five Doube Six YO!

Both Erics here.HAHA.07s20

Serine. haha.

no, its serene btw.

ODAC

Grace.ME.Xinyu.

India Trip mates.

07s20

Kityee and Cass.

2E class mates.

The friends i made on the first day of school!

Julia.

Seowhuan. My Kindergarden Friend.

haha, she didnt change much.

Charlene and Adeline

Xiuren molest me!

We are trying to act gay in this pic.

HAHA

Melvin. Pae Canoeing Friend.

Canoeing Captain. :D

Ok, finally uploaded PROM NIGHT PICS.

See YA!

2008-12-12T20:53:00.000-08:00

2008-12-09T06:22:00.000-08:00

I look so much like An Bo Zhen in this pic( if you know whos that)

>.<

2008-12-08T06:38:00.000-08:00

from the left, Vye Ren, Vivian, Yaying, ME.

Yay! I have completed the Singapore Standard Chartered Marathon!
i clocked a timing of 5 Hours 28 minutes 47 Seconds.
its really a tormenting experience for me.
woke up at 3am, ate two pieces of bread, w peanut butter.
(thats what michael kwok tell me)
HAHA, and drank a cup of coffee. im really tired, cos i only slept like 5 hours?
and when i woke up, i was damn afraid, was wondering whether my flu and cough is better.
in the end, when im taking the bus, my body temp increase.
its like fever, think its because of my sore throat prob.
i was so so so afraid that i will die of cardiac attack or sth
cos you know, its dangerous to run if you are sick.
so im kind of worried for myself. ( i dont want to die so early.)
but i took the risk instead.

We arrived early, but was late for like near to 20mins?
haha, cos we were searching for Vye Ren's friend's car.
damn, in the end, we took a cab to new parliament house.
Cos we dont know how to get there.
HAHA. joke man.
then i saw the kenyas running across the bridge when we havent even start!
I was urgently searching for the TOILET!
in the end, i cant find any.
So me and vivian started the race together.
the Emcee was like, " Runners, please start running. We are closing the road for the half marathon. Runners, please start running... "
ahahaha, can you imagine how late we were?
lol.
halfway saw yaying, lol.
in the end, they said OTOT.
i asked, whats THAT?
it means own time own target.
ok loh, i just quicken my stride and pace.
i didnt bring a watch you see, cos i see the sun as a gadge.
was running for a short while only, i saw the sky turn bright.
I told myself, " comeon, run faster than this, if not when the sun comes up, i will weaken. "
the morning weather was damn cooling, i think it just blow my fever away.
COOL.
was happily running till the 22km, i thought im very zai.
abit shock i can run non stop without difficulties till so far.
then suddenly, my muscles gave way.
damn, its painful.
i tot its muscle tear at first.
so i went to one side, and stretch.
from there on, the journey is three steps,
1. run
2. stop
3.walk.

and i repeat these for like 20km?
its really torturing, i have no problem with stamina, but the muscles just cant take it.
its like running for a very very short while and you can feel the muscles contract alr.
the funny thing is,
i was telling myself,
" EH? how come like for one hour, i keep see-ing the same people ard me?"
its like one hour alr, and its still the same ppl around me.
you know what?
they experience the same thing as me,
do-ing the three simple steps with me tgt.
run, stop, walk
HAHAHA, so fun.

saw quite alot of pioneers along the way.
and they just kept me going. haha.
saw weidi, some canoeing guys and volleyball guys.

I got very frustrated till the 38km mark.
NO bananas, No hundred plus, No power Gel.
im so damn hungry and thirsty.
im was afraid of dying, so i walk most of the distance for that.
till 41km mark, i saw an uncle.
he smiled to me, i smile back (as usu)
i asked, " how old are you?"
he replied, " you guess?"
"58?"
"NOPE, 7-2" he replied.
i was shocked, so i jog with him, chit chat abit, at least it keeps me entertained.
then we cross the finishing line together.
AHAHA, good EXP!
and i realised this is the 17th time he joined the marathon. =O

I must really thank these people.
ALICIA, KEVIN and XIUREN!

They went down and support me, but so wasted, they didnt spot me coming in.
and they waited for so long for me. haha
thanks guys! they also came down to airport to fetch me when i came back from india.
really touched. HAHA. ok, thanks man.

This event is really about endurance and self motivating.
its like you know you cant turn back, esp for me at 22km.
you got cramps, so does everyone else.
Dont turn back, just keep on looking forward.
its like in the middle of the desert, you have no one to depend on.
only yourself!
Believe and motivate, thats the strategy.
finish 1km by 1km, taking a step at a time.
slowly, i find myself finishing up to 42.195km.
its the journey not the end that matters!
Great learning experience for me. hahaha.

i find that i havent upload the pics for prom night.
(maybe when i have the time?)

2008-12-04T05:53:00.000-08:00

I found a job!
and my job is to help other people to find jobs. :)
haha.
im currently working as a temp recruitment consultant.
I went to work straightaway after prom night.
and the first day of work i slept for only four hours. >.<
But thank God i managed to wake up at 6am even without the alarm. haha.
for those who are looking for temp jobs
im so sorry that im not able to help you all.
Cos what im dealing with are IT related jobs.
and i have been calling lots and lots of people.
Fresh diplomas in IT/ even degree holders who are much older than me.
The pay sucks and it isnt attractive.
But it can welly get me paid per month.
its just that i have to work several OTs w/o being paid.
and work under stress and pressure.
Getting to interview lots of people everyday
Calling people every single day.
Its cool! and dont be surprised if you spot me wearing so formal,
with a tie walking around in orchard area during lunch time. HAHA
I got the taste of the real working world, with bitchy ones (of course)
and i really hate those bitchy and bossy ladies.
But i made quite alot of friends so far. I've got to know all people from two offices.
and im also reqd to run from one office to the other.
its challenging and tiring, but the exp is worth it.

Prom night is over and i would say the service isnt very good.
and the food too.
and THANKS S20, for sabo-ING me to go up on stage for the prom king selection
and they really shouted and screamed.
But sorry, i have never ever thought that im handsome before.
and it aches my heart when i see my friends cheering so hard for me.
Cos no matter how they screamed,
I will never EVER get chosen.
(although they are sabo-ing me)
and i was still sick on prom, damn. five days of training gone.
marathon is up next.
DO YOU HAVE ANY IDEA HOW MANY DAYS LEFT TO THE MARATHON?
ITS ONLY 3 days!
there are so many challenges for me every single day.
im getting so excited as each day pass by.

I will see how i conquer them myself. :)
haha.

2008-11-29T01:15:00.000-08:00

Chay, when you see this you must be: " EH? isnt that my cap?"
lol. managed to dig this out somewhere in my com.
its two years back alr. -.-
photos are meant for us to laugh at ourselves when we grow older.
lol.
maybe two more years down the road, i will laugh at myself when i view at this year's prom night photos. LOL

2008-11-28T04:32:00.000-08:00

Ok, i said i will post about this before A level.

but its abit late. LOL.

most asked, but anw, its a SIF gala dinner.

if you dont know, SIF stand for Singapore International Foundation.

its an organisation and this dinner invites all the partners of SIF.

so PJC is one of its partners.

and i just rep pjc to take a "recognition for partnership" plaque.

haha, nth great actually.

some said its just a normal dinner. :(

anw, its great talking to our president SR nathan!

lol. you never know how it is to stand on the stage, with all the people in the ballroom looking at you.

the worst thing is that there is COMPLETE silence.

and i really mean complete silence, cos whatever that i said to our president can be heard.

its that loud.

i mean its that silent. -.-
wah, have been feeling great ever since that day, cos get to see our president in LIVE!

lol.

ok, A level is over.

I just find myself very busy nowadays. i dont know why.

there are always things for me to do. and job is really difficult to find.

>.<

damn it! its just giving me stress and pressure.

Grad night is coming. :(

its the only night that i get to see some of my friends for the last time.

ahahaha.

i still rmb someone wore the same shirt and tie as me at sec sch prom night.

BUT, this time round, i will be completely safe.

cos my bro bought the shirt in taiwan during his army trip.

(I just borrow and wear, this should save $$) HAHA.

and you know, i didnt spend too much for this prom night,

cos i tink its just a waste of money.

Recently i visit the gym and there are two guys comparing their chest muscles in the toilet.

-.-.

This conception is completely off. you go to gym not to build muscles for showing off, or whatsoever. they call it HOT HOT HOT. -.-

you go to gym is for conditioning purpose, to build strength, increase endurance and build up on fitness.

Maybe thats my conception perhaps.

one said,

" Eh, i think my chest is getting bigger. "

the other replied,

" WT*, your chest is like so small, its just opposite of me. you see i've got big chest, but my biceps are small."

i looked at them and laughed.

(both are small. so they are just wasting their time comparing. -.-)

haha,just cant stand such people. >.<

a random comment.

2008-11-19T00:51:00.000-08:00

yay yay yay.
A level end already. woohoo.

but the feeling that i have after A's is totally different from O's.

-.-

dont know why, dont feel as excited. haha.
so the many questions that i heard from everyone is,

' So what are you gg to do next?'

my reply to them is: "run"

" what are you wearing for prom?"

my reply is, "nothing"

actually i feel that A level might have ended, but learning does not end here.

to me, its not the end but the beginning.

its the time for RENEWAL.

its time to pick up skills, learn something new that you have not.

Im going to learn cooking. HAHA.

and i have a small competition with xiuren and kevin.

we are gg to see who cook the most delicious meal.

next, im learning piano. maybe next time you will see me play piano and sing at the same time.

find a job? after marathon please.

and im getting very worried about it. AAAAHHH.

and there are nice ppl who wan to come and support me, thanks!
But no joke ok.

i advise not to, cos the race starts at 5am.

zzzzz. its damn early.

ok, around two weeks and i will be like this man over here:

and of course not holding any girl's hand when i cross the line.

2008-11-04T04:05:00.000-08:00

Xiuren gave me this quote,

" There are no choices. Nothing but a straight line. The illusion comes afterwards, when you ask "Why me?" and "What if?". When you look back and see the branches, like a pruned bonsai tree, or forked lightning. If you had done something differently, it wouldn't be you, it would be someone else looking back, asking a different set of questions."

stop and think for a while.
is it really true?

Choice Vs Fate.
If you made the wrong choice, are you already destined to make that wrong choice?
Do you believe more in choice or in fate?

and this,
"There are things in life you cannot choose. How you feel."

and he gave me this,

"The past is a gaping hole. You try to run from it, but the more you run, the deeper, more terrible it grows behind you, its edges yawning at your heels. Your only chance is to turn around and face it. But it's like looking down into the grave of your love, or kissing the mouth of a gun, a bullet trembling in its dark nest, ready to blow your head off."

Stop and think.
Have you made the wrong choice in your life before?

Sadly to say, I have.

2008-11-01T01:39:00.000-07:00

Eh? How come im beside the CEO of Mediacorp?

and Mrs Tan?!

and thats our president. :)

haha, will update after A's.

2008-10-31T17:50:00.000-07:00

Save me please. :'(

2008-10-27T16:18:00.000-07:00

have you realised that the next few days are the most crucial part of our life.
12 years of what we went through,
one examination to determine it all.
this is the day we are all waiting for.
the only examination that determines whether we get into university.
your past no longer matters anymore.
it doesnt matter which primary sch,
or secondary school you come from.
it doesnt matter how bad you fare in your school exams,
your prelims, your midyears, your block test/common test you call it.
chuck it aside and know this is the one.
THIS IS WHERE YOU SHOW YOUR BEST.
finally.
its coming.. YAY!
加油!

2008-10-14T06:38:00.000-07:00

arghhhhhh.
feel so guilty. haha.
ever since prelim results are out,
and all sorts of things happening,
i stopped following the training plan for marathon.(for a while)
Mr Kwok: " AHHH!! Ni mei you Pao ar? duo jiu le? Lai lai, lao shi jiang. how long you nv run?"
LOL!
its the first time he speak chinese when he saw me.
then i told him, around 1 week. lol.
everytime he saw me he will ask me, " so hows your training? "
before the prelim, i will still reply,
" ya! still gg fine."
now i will, " errr. nv run. lol.''
but now, im beginning to continue back the plan.
how can i be like this man?!
im so easily distracted. damn. i dont like this.
have been really hard to run even short distance now.
i didnt know that the effect was so great.

argh. i still cant muster the energy to run in the morning.
if i can, everything will be so easy now.
Not forgetting i still have my A level.
but i nv see running as tiring myself.
i see it as plugging an oxygen tank into my brain until it have excessive oxygen for the day.
so, dont say im siao.

lets try from today, 7km every morning.
:P
(Try only)

2008-10-08T07:47:00.000-07:00

ahaha! just a joke shared from one of my friend.
girls are like balls.
girls from age of 17- 22 are like soccer ball. 22 people chasing after one ball.

girls from age of 23 - 28 are like basketball.
still, there are 10 people chasing after them.
but now, with lesser people. HA!

girls from age of 29 - 34 are like ping pong ball.
hit back and fro by two guys. LOL!

girls from age of 35 onwards are like golf ball.
people will try to hit you as far as possible. LOL

So if girls are still single at the age of 29,
they are at the brink of recession.
the values keep dropping hundred pts per day!
until its of no value. HAHA.

wah i find it very funny.

and oh well farewell is coming. :(
the only thing that i love sch is to see my S20 classmates.
ok, not see see only.
is to crap and joke with them.
i think i really enjoy it. haha.
they can make u happy even if your mood isnt good.
please, everyone MUST must must come on Fri!

ok, im moving on alr.
finally. haha.
im so happy today! yay!
i will never be a emo momo.
If your day can be a smiling and happy one, why make yourself suffer by emo momo-ING?
LOL.
i realise a habit of human.
haha, we tend to ponder over matters that we know they make us emo.
even though we know it will make us emo, we will still think about it.
and we will keep thinking about it,
night and day, emo momoing about it.

enlightened!
if you feel emo when thinking over such matters, then dont think!
life still have many things that make you happy.
and that makes you smile everyday. :)
a smile a day keeps all the troubles away.
i think i attain enlightenment liao. HAHA
ok, paiseh for this random post:)

2008-10-06T03:20:00.000-07:00

yay! A level is coming. yes!
its going to end very soon.
and whats the feeling of receiving a sms at midnight,
when you are staying up late at night and you received a sms.
this sms contains a verse which is a form of encouragement, asking me not to give up in whatever things i do.
seriously, when i saw the sms, i am so so so happy.
its like 1am. and the reason why im so happy is because,
this guy who text me isnt from pjc.
hes from ACJC and my PAE classmate!
wah, we didnt contact for months and this sudden sms really makes me happy. :)
but i feel all of us now really need just a word of encouragement to keep us going.
LOL, zheqian thanks man!
you made my day. and i doubt he will see this anw.
and those who are reading my post,
hang on there. its gg to end soon..
but dont hang there and dont move Cos the time still flies.
all the best! :)

2008-09-24T00:50:00.000-07:00

For a moment, you made me thought it was so.
Then you confused me.
now you messed me up.
so whats next?
i have no choice but to lament, "Why must it be me?"
In the first place, i shouldnt have been there.
As a result, i couldnt sleep for days.
Now, please give me a chance to have a good sleep tonight :)
I tried to forget about it but i just can't.
this is really a torture to me :(
My sweet dreams lied to me. i thought it will come true.
I didnt dream of it once. and all along, its so real.
but someone gave me a knock on the head and said, " Dream on, you fool."
And now im awake.
Im used to all these things.
and i would really deceive myself that i can get over it.
cos i know i never will.

But i heard a voice calling in my head,
" Its okay Eric, get up and walk with your head upright from here. Dont be disheartened cos you never know what will happen in the future."

Now i hear another voice calling in my head,
" You have yet to achieve alot of things in life. Dont give up on yourself because of this Eric!"

I have only myself to blame.
got to move on, eric.

2008-09-22T06:02:00.000-07:00

prelims are over, so whats next?
we've got five days of break.
so how did i spend my time?
i think much of the time is spent on relaxing and playing.
HAHA.
a quick review of what i had done.

Fri: morning: run
afternoon: partyworld-ing with kahkian and lixian.

Sat: go to pulau ubin to cycle with sec sch friends.
ahaha. they were saying later saw my bike over there, maybe the theif will smuggle it to ubin.
walao, really saw my bike, same brand and model. -.-
night: went over to changi airport and have dinner.
took a look at T3. wasnt really that nice as i expect it to be. haha.

Sun: morning to afternoon: study.
evening: Long run.

Mon(today): morning:
went over to play badminton with classmates(07s20).
wah, play non stop for very long. exhausted liao. -.-
afternoon: went over to settlers at SMU to play game, cards, etc.
ahaha. what a nice place to have fun.
actually most of the time we spent at settlers are laughing.
its just laugh and laugh, cos some of the games are just so so funny. LOL

im totally worn out now. >.<

anw, i have a quote to share with all of you.
i saw this in our school library, dont usually sit around that area, but i just happened to see this:

Essence of life:
" Every morning in Africa, a Gazelle wakes up. It knows it must run faster than the fastest Lion or it will be killed.
Every morning, a Lion wakes up. It knows it must outrun the slowest Gazelle or it will starve to death.
It doesnt matter whether youare a Gazelle or Lion... When the sun comes up, you'd better be running."

so those who are reading this post, hope this quote can kick your ass and keeps you moving.
Don't wait, cos the time will never be just right.

2008-09-13T07:23:00.000-07:00

i dreamt of something ytd night.
and its damn real man.
oh my.
how i hope its gonna come true.
its not sth about my future,
but my dream apply to what i really face now.
which is my prelims.
i still can rmb the cheerings, the smiles and the laughter in my dream.
i look towards that!
please! let it come true. HAHA. :)

2008-09-05T07:01:00.000-07:00

feeling stressed over the upcoming prelims?
take a break and go for a run.
haha.
it really works. you just dont have any headaches anymore.
cool. :)

Mrs Ng (econs): " i think the midyear exam is just too easy when i compare it with your prelim paper. "

Me: " =O "
Dont stress me anymore cos i havent start revising!
i shall start now.
LOL.

Quote to share for today: " Other people's opinion of you does not necessarily need to become a reality of yours. "

IM GONNA WIN IT AGAIN.
and yes, eric, you will, can & MUST do it.
no matter what.

2008-09-02T00:28:00.000-07:00

Realise the blog song has changed?
A beautiful song indeed.
For those who are weary, tired, lost, unmotivated,
you can listen to this song and it will give you an adrenaline rush.
Spare me your 5 minutes and listen to this song.

Lyrics:
When I am down and, oh my soul, so weary
When troubles come and my heart burdened be
Then, I am still and wait here in the silence,
Until you come and sit awhile with me.
You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders
You raise me up to more than I can be.

Quote to share for today:
" If you learn from defeat, you haven't really lost. "

2008-08-29T22:24:00.001-07:00

Our CT was telling us not to leave our things ard in sch.
ppl will steal your GC and your notes. cos they are desperate!lol.
but its ok for me to leave my things ard in class.
unattended.
but its bad when you leave your phone there.
cos ppl will start to take silly pictures with it. and its damn silly and FUNNY. LOL

LOL, isnt this silly? you should see the video behind this.
its teachers day and Mr Michael Kwok got the Most Caring teacher award at the national level.
wow. but no doubt, hes really one.
he helped me to sign up for marathon.
besides that, he helped to plan a 13 weeks training programme for me.
that helps me to prepare for marathon.
this is the first time in my life i ever met with such a nice PE teacher.

haha.
and i realise the distance i covered gradually increases.
speed increase too.
timing improves.
and the feeling is great.
i think i have no choice but to run when other ppl are watching TV.
and chiong for prelims at the same time.

you know what?
i realise ppl with the name Michael are really great ppl.
ppl that inspires me.
Michael Kwok inspires me to be like him.
Michael Phelps inspire me to break my own record.
making a personal breakthrough.

Heres a quote to share:
" You cant doubt. If you doubt, then thats it. The biggest thing is staying positive and imagining everything is possible. Because it really is. "

By Michael Phelps.

2008-08-21T03:36:00.000-07:00

Im really glad that PJC has a very good Vice Principal.
look at the talk that he has given us.
i really admire him.
at the start of the ppt, he stated there:

" At the beginning of the year, i have already told you that you will waste your june holiday away and start to panic during september. "

its really true. haha.

" What you do in the next three months will determine where you will go in the next three years."
make sense?

he make us realise the power of focus. damn. the video is so good and it make me realise focus can really put away distractions.

Vision = See + Believe + Action.
and i totally agree with this.

Do you realise that time pass really fast?
less than 3 more months and we will be taking our A levels already.

2008-08-09T17:29:00.000-07:00

National Day is a screwed up day for me.
Thou shall not steal.
and the one who stole by bike, may God Bless You.
or i should say, may God Blast you.
May you have an affinity with car accident.

i was freaking pissed when i discovered my bike was left with the front wheel only.
and i made a police report.
walked back and fro to Yew Tee neighbourhood Police centre.
had requested them to check for fingerprint since they said its possible.
if the lever is still there.
but nothing can be done since the lever is so SMALL.

AHHH.
what a bad day. >.<

2008-08-07T06:14:00.000-07:00

42.195km.
the breakthrough for me this year, 2008.
:)

a very costly decision.
joining this marathon isnt cheap.
but the achievement is satisfactory.
i better come back with a finisher tee and a medal.
I Hope so.

2008-07-25T07:32:00.000-07:00

School has been very very busy.
school work is never ending. you just do and do.
Just Do It. ;)
and please dont ever see me and start telling me, wah your econs top in cohort leh.
top student top student. and there goes the chanting. >.<
im under alot of pressure because econs result can really fluctuate.
i may get a U in prelim just like in common test.
so im under immense stress now.
this time round its pure luck. i also dont know what happen.

and i just realise Mr Michael kwok join all races in Singapore.
Name one, and he will tell you, Yes! i register already/ i have went for it.

Me: So how? You register for standard chartered already?
Kwok: Yea! i sign up over the internet.
Me: Wah...
Kwok: My advice to you is you can start to add up your mileage up to 60km to 70km per week.
Me: =O. but i got A level leh. where got TIME?
Kwok: Can one lah, people watch TV, play computer to relax, you take running as a form of relaxing lah
Me: ok, i'll try.=.=

Maybe i should really try.
4 days of 15km each(you siao)
easy to be said, but hard to be done when there are so many CHEM PAPERS TO DO!!
ARGH
now the homework is not paper by paper.
like complete paper 1 over the weekend
its like complete two years of P1 P2 P3.
Good luck to me.
=.=

I felt rejected.
somehow. but its ok. i'll be fine. :)

2008-07-22T05:44:00.001-07:00

Want to gain the FIRST MILLION in your life?

Its easy, just find this guy:

2008-07-12T06:04:00.000-07:00

this entire week isnt good for me.
somehow, it seems like i've lost everything.
Have Been busy attending my grandpa's funeral.
was worried for my dad at the same time, have been afraid he got a second stroke.
so i was like his dietician, controlling the amt of beer he drank.

maybe its fated to be in this way.
maybe im not good enough.
i still cant accept the fact i lost.
to a gay.

some may know what im talking about.
haha. but well, i've been losing my appetite.
dont know why, i dont seem to eat during recess when i've eaten my breakfast this time round

and when i walk and find its really slow,
i'll choose to run.

sometimes i find myself abit crazy.
maybe i'll feel better when i've shed every bit of fats in my body
i still cant get over it.

some of my relatives were shocked when i called them during the funeral.
they were like ?!?! who are you?
they said i changed alot. couldnt recognise me.

i think its just that they havent seen me for quite a while.
some 3 to 4 years.
some 1 to 2 years.

" Eh? ni bian shou le ar? wah, zhen de bian shou le leh. ren bu chu ni leh"

really? i dont think so.
:(

received MYE results.
and they are bad.
math D
physics E
chemistry S
econs B

i need some time to get over this. pfffft.

2008-07-05T19:38:00.000-07:00

oh my.
Qiao Wei house is really fun. haha.
last time its KTV.
now its Wii.
LOL. had a great time playing.
esp tennis.
it will only be fun when you play it with your friends.
and when you imagine like you're playing a real tennis match. LOL
and we all rmb juncong's birthday wrongly.
and didnt know that its his birthday this early morning. and we so happen to be tonning over at qiaowei's house.

ok, once again

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO
JUNCONG CAI

oops, its CAI JUNCONG/ cai ahcong.

ok, gonna celebrate his birthday later.
hope theres no tonning again. -.-

2008-07-02T05:13:00.000-07:00

Exams are over for now.
how was it?
nah, i rather not comment on it.
i dont know is it because im slow or because of other reasons,
i dont seem to finish the papers on time.
not just one, but many.
-.-
the only one that i can finish is econs paper.
others all @#@$%@%^#$@$@%@
especially chemistry paper 3.
i mean its really infuriating to do a paper that you cant finish.
its like you prepare so much for it, but you go in and do that little bit.
and left so much blank.
and once again, i think i have let my teacher down.
i wish i have a sandbag at home. haha.

and time and time again i keep telling myself, its ok, its ok.
but it doesnt seem to be ok to me for now.
when will it be ok then?

really angry after doing chemistry papers.
even MCQ cant finish.
like about 6 questions?
what is this man?!

totally screwed.
leftrightupdowncenter screwed.

argh. >.<

2008-06-15T06:18:00.001-07:00

YEA.
went for medical checkup. and its Pes A.
and didnt go for school mock maths exam instead.
it can be quite funny though. LOL.
the aptitude tests can be quite tiring.
think+calculate+imagine until whole brain juice used up.
>.<
something weird is my weight still remain the same.
but my height actually reduce by 3cm, which is different from that taken in school.
how can it be? lol.
and now, im really short.

2008-06-15T06:18:00.000-07:00

yo!
june holiday is left with one more week.
time is running out.. :(
anw, my brother just came out of his BMT.
haha.
i really look forward to army life.
everything is so relaxed. you no need to care about studies and etc.
but what if its physically demanding?
i love it even more. haha.

Officer Cadet School, here i come.
im preparing myself to get gold for IPPT during BMT.
12 pull ups to get gold.
and that is the amt that i need to do to have a higher chance of getting selected.
2.4km. i should be able to pass the timing already.
timing should be less than 9.44min to get gold.
my timing is just nice 9.44min.

ok, enough said. dont talk too much about army.
have to pass my medical checkup first.
:)

and,
anyone interested to join standard chartered marathon this year?
if you are, please do tell me.
LOL, im finding someone to accompany me.
ok, time to study. :)

2008-06-06T02:23:00.000-07:00

2008-05-31T20:23:00.000-07:00

H1 economics paper was over.
i was quite confident when doing the paper. haha.
i dont know why, but i seem to have this ability to anticipate what are the questions coming out.
i think i can read the teacher's mind. =P
both questions of the topic come out as what i have expected.
and i actually walk around my room when i do some final revision of econs.
and i stood there, noticing something that has always been in my room,
but i just nv notice it.
its my sec one class photo.
HAHAHA
it just caught my eye and i stood there, watching it for some minutes.
i realised some of us had changed alot.
some still remain the same.
the year reflect, year 2003.
compare it with now, 2008, 5 years and we have grown taller? mature? older?
and then i look at my sec 3 class photo and my sec 4 class photo.
i tink i look very different as compared to now.
haha :).
what will we look like in the next 5 years?

and ytd, i went back to kranji sec.
i alwaes have this mixed feelings.
this is the place, where i have been laughed at, mocked at, being very depressed over fat and thin issue in the past.
but it also bring back sweet memories.
Good memories that i had in NPCC, campcraft, etc

and we kicked soccer with our usual old friends, ex 2E people and desmond at limbang.
oh my, desmond grow so tall, i tink taller/same height as me.
this time round, its NOT just a game of soccer.
haha. we actually had a MISSION to accomplish.
one of our soccer balls got stuck in the tree.
all because of weiwen. -.-
in the end, we tried to get the ball down by using a basketball.
throw it up and try to hit it but the soccer ball is stuck up so high in the tree!
all because of weiwen. LOL.
then later, the basketball got stuck up there as well!!!!!
all because of weiwen AGAIN.
lol. then lixian and ben tried to kick our last soccer ball up to hit the stucked ball.
LOL.
in the end, the soccer ball also end up stucked there!
we were all very tired, so we decided to head for dinner first. LOL.

we came back with great plans.
we went to take bamboo sticks, those for hanging clothes one. LOL.
our campcraft skills come into use!
we tie the bamboo sticks with the lashings.
and create a super long stick.

I tried to lift the stick up high in the air,
tried to poke the ball. But its very difficult, cos it get entangled with the branches very easily.
argh.
LOL.
after a few minutes, im very tired.

BUT
great help did come along.
one bangladeshi worker climb up the tree and shook the tree and the ball fell down.
wah, impressed.
then after that, we tried to ask him to help us take the second soccer ball stucked up there.
he climb even higher, this time round, we were very worried.
lol. he asked for half the length of our bamboo stick and poke it,
and.. we SAVE our second soccer ball as well!
LOL.
in the end, we tried to poke out the basketball ourselves.
and phew, we succeeded!
i thought we will come with three balls and go back with no balls.
but then, we still manage to save all THREE balls.
lol.

in the end, we decide to play soccer in the street soccer court AGAIN.
we end up playing till 10+ pm.

what an adventurous day. =P
haha.

2008-05-23T06:31:00.000-07:00

Its really funny to snapshot your friend when they tried to sleep in class.
i took this when weiwen is sleeping during GP lesson.
He looks like a bloated fish to me.
he say he will sue me if i blog this.
haha. but i dont think he will.
LOL.
so people, get ready your cameras when your friends sleep!
hahaha. they are really damn funny with different sleeping styles.
i bet i will be the next target if i sleep in class. haha

2008-05-19T04:42:00.000-07:00

Too bad the shoe isnt this nice anymore. >.<.

2008-05-16T19:55:00.000-07:00

I have stepped down in ODAC. and these are a few pictures during ODAC.
let the pictures say everything. LOL.

Survival Committee

Dragon boat outing

Induction camp

Lead PT.

Kayaking course

National Vertical Marathon

"The Winning Team"
for NVM

Graduation Ceremony. LOL

2008-05-03T03:49:00.001-07:00

i manage to find this pic somewhere else.

and i cant stop laughing at myself.

i look so stupid. LOL.

can you spot its actually a S20 word? LOL

2008-04-27T04:10:00.000-07:00

THANKS ALL for tagging.
everything is fine now. haha.
i didnt know many read my blog.
some read, but didnt tag and asked how i am in sch.
thats very encouraging. :))
everything is settled.
i talked with my dad and guess its much much MORE better now.
haha.
i feel im blessed with kind teachers around me.
miss zal serve me with food as a form of thanking me for helping her out for the Mock conference.
Mr Sas trying to sort out another slot of india trip presentation for me, knowing that i was very sad after the "rushing" presentation the other time.
i felt sad to reject his offer as the presentation will be very boring to the J2s by then.
Napfa is next week.
and im very happy i have another kind teacher that can sacrifice for me.
its Mr Kwok.
He allow me to take the Napfa test next next week, during PE lesson tgt with the girls.
so im excused as i have a sprained ankle thats not 100% healed.
though i can run now. =P
and oh yea, its quite scary to know that quite alot of people are getting sprains here and there.
esp those in Merits sports. its the worst for them.
aiyo, people please do take care.
and me too. haha.

and im glad i didnt miss PJC volleyball boys team match last week. the match against NYJC
its really exciting with both teams on par.
i know its gonna be a match thats very exciting, with both teams with a very tight score.
Although PJC lost, but they lost with a close margin.
thats ok, and YONGYAO, jiayou and i think they will get into the top four.
PROUD of them. :) their "zero to hero."
Good luck to all the other pioneers in merit sports match. =)

2008-04-18T06:15:00.000-07:00

i think im gonna break down at any point of time.
life isnt good since my bro went to army.
my dad constantly scold me for nothing.
giving me alot of pressure.
every night he says im stupid.
i cant do it.
he also say that he wish that i will fail for my test.
all these, it breaks my heart.
and i cant find any motivation to study or do hmk at home.

i have been noticing him, and anticipating what he will say.
every time i reached home, thats like basically three things i need to do.
so as usual, i will be doing one thing at a time.
but he always say why i never do either the second thing or third thing.
and he refers me to the word, " stupid"
or "blur"
or "brain dysfunctional"
im very sick and i feel theres something pulling me down everyday.
i felt so much happier in sch than at home.

whats disappointing is i dont get support from my family.
something is very wrong here.
all children likes to tell their parents about their great achievements/
what great things they get to do in sch.
im just like any one of them. i told my dad, im giving a speech to the sch.
he said im lying to him, and even despise me.
saying given my brain capability, my calibre, im not cut out to make a speech.
he said the teacher that choose me is so wrong and stupid.

i told him about my cross country achievement.
he say dont be stupid and run so fast to compete with people that you cant compete.

with all these, can you imagine how much pressure im under now?
and with all that, i feel like scolding" wtf. just shut up please."

i really envy those families that are so encouraging towards each other.
im wondering how am i going to take the A level with such pressure.
that pulling me downwards everyday.

till now, he never change.
and i find no meaning in what i do now.
i rather go to heaven and find some peace.
but i know im wrong to say this.

its not that i didnt try my best
but i just cant find someone to trust in me.
its not that im not serious
its just that no matter what achievement i get, nobody appreciates.
its not that i cant do it
but its the matter of fact whether im given a chance to do it.

all i need is support from friends rather than family.
Save me. :'(

2008-04-13T03:31:00.001-07:00

arrrrrrrrggggghhhhh.
i dont want to be the presenter for GP enrichment prog tml.
i keep insisting that i dont want dont want dont want.
in the end, im still chosen by miss zaleena to be the speaker.
and everything is given to me only on mon.
and i have to prepare the script?
and i hate this.
the prob is, nobody in my grp wants to be the presenter.
i really hate all these last min work assigned to me.
and i have to wear so formal on that day just to give a speech?
long sleeve, tie .
oh crap. >.<
miss zal sae im destined to give a speech to the sch.
i cant run away. argh.

2008-04-06T23:11:00.000-07:00

monday wasnt a good day for me today.
=(
my stomach isnt feeling well since sat.
and i guess i got this from my bro.
who had it since last week. think he got gastric flu or sth.
and today is the physics spa assessment.
i cant go in with a problematic stomach.
once i had my runs, i will feel like going for more.
it will keep regenerating all the _____.
and i SIGN OUT. cant stand my stomach.
and i realise i got stomach INFECTION when i see the doc.
he told me yes! this is contagious! >.<
people ard me, be CAREFUL. lol.

michael kwok talk to me again today.
and he told me he changed his shoe once every four months.
i asked him why?
he said "because i run about 10km everyday mah, after four months the shoe become botak alr, the cushioning all gone. "

he even wrote the date on his shoe. LOL.
the funniest part is this: " if not you think i can keep in this shape since secondary 3 ar? i was the school grass at that time. "
(xiao cao)
funny teacher, haha.

and i just bought my new SHOE!
asics-
hope this pair can endure better and last longer than kwok's mizuno shoes.
haha.
but, i dont run 10k everyday. =.=

2008-04-03T00:34:00.001-07:00

recently it seems like everything just come to me all at one go.
kind of stressful to cope with failures,
at the same time having to move on.
oh and a crap india presentation that make a total fool out of ourselves.
its kind of wasted..
especially when we spend alot of time, having to meet up and practise.
for me, its practice for my pronounciation.
miss zal corrected all my mistake.
(shes VERY particular about it!)
haha. and i really mean VERY.
and i think shes a great english teacher.
she teach GP and lit.

i have no idea what to blog.
as this JC life is like always the same.
i can even rmb at what day, what time, others will be having recess or break.
its boring-

2008-03-30T01:03:00.000-07:00

hahaha, i was blog hopping and i realise many of them talked about common test.
i didnt want to blog about it.
cos as you know, my results aint good.
i tot i screwed up my physics and would get a U.
but i got just pass in it, which is E.
but considered fail in my teacher's perspective.
" its ok, could have done better"
I failed my chem MCQ, damn, its very demoralising.
but teacher just wont return us our paper 2.
>.<
"its ok, just put in alittle more effort"
my maths teacher shake her head when she returned me my maths paper.
haha. i got a B, 2 more marks to an A.
" its ok, i could have done better"
i got back my GP and im glad i didnt get a U.
and i got just nice S.
but its still isnt good enough.
" its ok, just a little more effort"
my econs teacher went through the essay, and i realised i wrote out of pt.
damn.
" its ok, just a bit more practice will do"
i realised my results are BAD.
some people will start to laugh at me.
and start to compare their daily routines, they played games.
i didnt
they score better than me.
im more stupid.
haa. what a joke.
i didnt put in all my best.

i saw this from somewhere.
i think its from soo hui's nick.
" give me a setback and watch me grow stronger"

:)

2008-03-18T22:17:00.001-07:00

today marks the end of our COMMON TEST.
of course, i dont think i can make it.
and physics paper really spoil my whole day.
that i didnt have the mood to study for chemistry.
i was just stoning and slacking at home.
crap, i misread the question and i tink alot of marks are gone.
cos the ans from part i) is linked to the last part.

and i guess im really stupid when it comes to physics.
i dont know why but i started worrying about everything after the physics paper.
now my parents' expectations to me in A level are very high.
they are expecting me to get into local University.
cos im not rich enough to afford to study Uni overseas.

but my mindset is very different from my parents.
they want me to get into a Uni of any course.
but i wan to get into a faculty that i like.
but it isnt easy because of all the competition that we face from students all around singapore
do you KNOW that 30 000 students applied for local University.
BUT only about 10, 000 to 11,000 are accepted?

i dont know why but it feels to be very stressful.
cos i dont wan to disappoint my parents.
neither myself.
im just afraid my common test result will start to let my parents worry.

i dont dare to show them or tell them.
cos im just disgraced of myself.
i didnt put in 100% effort.
its night time 10pm and i had only studied 3 chapts just before chem test.
organic chem: untouched.
periodicity chapts: untouched.

and during the chem test, i felt confident despite not studying much.
but i spend alot of time thinking that i didnt complete easy questions like deductive qn.
i guess i must really do sth for this midyear exam.

im beginning to worry for my GP as well.
>.< all in all, i must start to love physics now.
NO MATTER WHAT.
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2008-03-11T03:01:00.001-07:00

- blog closed down until further notice -
Sorry for any INCONVENIENCE caused.

P.S : in the process of studying for common test.

:)

2008-03-08T16:59:00.001-08:00

wooh, im here to blog in this early morning. lol.
i dont noe why, these few days i had been feeling tired when the night approaches.
and i would sleep and would automatically wake up at 5.30
and im serious.
its really on the dot, 5.30.
and i would lie on the bed till my alarm rings at 6am.
think it become a habit because of the time i wake up for school.
=.=
received my a level CHINESE results.
its unexpected, cos in class i usually get C or D.
particularly the last few in class.
and i rmbed clearly i get so depressed of my language at that point of time.
i had gave up hope on chinese on the very day my chinese teacher started to teach us.
but dont say i tyco one ok.
i put in the very last effort before the chinese exam.
looking out where my mistakes lie.
and read the ans teacher gave, teaching myself how to write.
lol.
at that pt of time, i noe i wont get A, so i tot, i must get at least a B!
so in order to get B, i must aim for A.
a miracle indeed. LOL.
i get A , and pass for ORAL.
when i received my result, i was very confused.
i tot its "a pass"
so i told to myself, so its just pass or what?
whats the grade?!
then i shocked, its A!!!
LOL.
congrats to myself. :)

went for ECONS SEMINAR.
quite interesting, FOR SOME PART OF IT.
lol, but then i realised theres alot of CHINA student.
particularly in other TOP JCs like Victoria.
she ask aalot of question.
and it left me thinking,
these CHINA students are out there to compete with us.
hence its even harder to get A for a subject in A level.
cos they only take the TOP 25% of the cohort for As.!!!
that means, we had to really fight fight fight.
if not, we will get Bs and Cs.
damn those china students.
no offence. LOL.

2008-03-03T03:12:00.000-08:00

its monday today.
and the day isnt good for me.
discouraged and demoralised.
i didnt know all the while my extreme line for physics practical had been drawn wrongly.
until teacher showed it to the whole class my piece of work.
im damn paiseh.
and even my careless mistake, he circled and say,

" rounding off is a very basic skill"

"make sure you are clear of how to draw the extreme line before you draw!"

" POORLY done. see me. what are you doing during lesson?"

and my paper is all red pen markings. alot of comments + words.

im damn damn moody. cos all the while, for so MANY practicals, he didnt correct my mistake.
only until today i know my own mistake.
i told him my past pracs aint marked wrong.
i tot all the while, they are correct.
he replied, oh. i didnt check.
and he said, " then your previous spa assessment you also draw lidat?"
i said yes.
he said, "good luck to you."
he replied, if actual spa u do like this, i think you will fail.

i was like =O, why didnt you rectify my mistake earlier?!
the spa assessment has passed.
and its useless telling me all these now.
but its ok. theres another one coming up.
and by hook or by crook, i will make it right.

i dont know whether my teacher purposedly want to be biased towards me.
past few lessons, when im so urgent and want to go to toilet,
he didnt wan to let me go.
instead, he let the girls go.
he asked me to stand there and SHH SHH instead.
im damn pissed at that time.
dont understand, he asked why everytime during his lesson, i need to go toilet.
" ask my bladder"
dont ask me. =.=

but well, its ok. i wont mind him being so strict towards me.
at least now i know where my mistake lies in prac.
if not, i wouldnt know it for the next spa either!
lucky me.

i just cant put something off my mind.
dilemma. >.<

2008-02-28T00:02:00.000-08:00

im here to update on our sch's cross country!
disappointed and at the same time, contented with myself.
disappointment: my mind isnt strong.
contented: im still overall top 15 in college, J1s + J2s. :)
talk about it makes me feel very sad.
but i heard alot of my friends cheering for me.
esp when im on the other side of the canal.
thanks guys! lol.
haha. well, it did motivate me somehow esp when i felt like giving up. =P
the run is a very competitive run.
its like, i overtake him, later he overtake me.
overtake here and there. waliao.

lol, i was leading at the 8 th position.
but suddenly my whole leg felt so hot.
obviously, the ventilation holes of my ugly shoes doesnt help much.
HAHA
i let three runners overtake me at the slope!
arghhhh!
in the end i got 11th.
quite sad actually. cos my mind isnt strong enough.
>.<>.<

oh last but not least,
im very confident to say if eugene see is in our sch,
he will make a history by breaking the college record of 16 mins 02 secs for boys 4.2km run.
too bad, hes not here.
LOL.

2008-02-17T03:09:00.001-08:00

i need to chill myself.
im finding myself unable to concentrate sometimes.
i really must do something to overcome this.
sometimes i just hate myself for being so afraid of this and that.
and i watched PJC basketball match betw PJC and SRJC.
haha.
it reignite the basketball passion in me.
ask me whether i play basketball now,
the ans is no.
i had to wipe off the dust on my shoe whenever i start playing.
school work is building up.
and the stress level is building up on me.
i felt damn guilty when my CT said to us:
" your feeling stress? i dont think so."
" hello? this is only the first term and you are telling me you are stress?"

facing a thigh strain is the most painful experience for me.
its like feeling that you are handicapped.
you cant sprint, you cant over exert.

and im really very paiseh to wear my "ugly shoe" now.
lol. its my only running shoe now.
and its given by my dad when theres small holes at the sides of the shoes.
now, the hole really become air ventilation hole.
its so big that im SO PAISEH!
(when people start to laugh at my shoe. -.-)

but i will never throw that away.
at least change its shoe lace? lol.

2008-02-17T03:09:00.000-08:00

16/2

a day at qiaowei house.
karaoke, steamboat, mahjong.
alot of people went, and the normal people,
me ben jerry kahkian went home at only around 1am.
some left quite early and the rest of us play ban luck.
kahkian initially won alot of money.
but when he become the banker, i slowly suck all the money he won.
haha.
he believe in the law of attraction.
i believe in the law of equilibrium instead.
in the end, i won abt $7.
haha.
LOL.
its freaking fun, and seriously, i tink i have enjoyed myself the whole day.
you can hear people singing songs non stop from 1pm till 10pm.
lol.
and gotta thanks qiaowei for organising such events.
such minor events can actually maintain the friendships we have.

and cross country is about two more weeks?
i still have quite enough time to prepare myself.
quite stress actually.
cos im aiming something that i dont noe whether i can do it.
i shall not say it out.
LOL.
haha.
if not people will come and pressurise me.
and everyday is a training day for me.
one week can only allow a day rest. :)

ALL RIGHT, TOP 20 in cross country J2 boys.
here i come. =)
RAIN IS COMING DOWN THROUGH THE ROOFTOP.
eh, lame.

2008-02-10T02:53:00.001-08:00

14/2

what a day to spend valentine.
SAD AND EMO day for me.
oh, yeah. its friendship day for me btw.
but its ok. lol.
cos to many others, its also a friendship day!
>.<
andand
i received a wallet as birthday present from my classmates!
thanks people. =)

2008-02-10T02:53:00.000-08:00

im here to blog about the birthday celebration for me and benjamin.
8/2/08.
hahaha, i had a great time with them.
qiao wei, shiying, chingsian, lixian, me, benjamin, kahkian, chay, juncong and junxian.
first we had dinner at fish and co at jurong point.
then qiaowei keep changing stories, like wanna create a surprise.
haha.
but in the end, its great after all.
and fish & co celebrated birthday with us.
its really paiseh to stand on the chair and everyone clap and sing birthday song for you.
BUT.
the feeling is great. haha. =)
and i must really thank QIAO WEI for organising all these.
she even treat me to kung fu dunk movie.(dont watch,its a lame show)
=P.
haha.
after the movie, i received a call from sien.
it wasnt a surprise, i knew it.
cos i saw shiying and qiaowei calling her.
(dont know what they doing)
LOL.
haha. but thanks anw.
and then we went to bukit batok CSC to play bowling.
eh, my first time playing. alot went into the gutter.
but i got ONE STRIKE.
one only. haha.
at least this year my birthday wasnt a lonely one.
THANKS PEOPLE! =)
and its filled with SURPRISES.
LOL.

and lastly.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO BENJAMIN!!!

2008-02-07T18:33:00.000-08:00

08.02.08
what did i do for my birthday? haha.
i woke up at 7am in the morning.
went to run for about 5km.
come back and here i am, nothing to do.
CNY have never been happy for me.
family politics & conflicts made me really unhappy about this incomplete family.
sometimes i really dont understand what the adults are thinking.
first day of CNY i went out and visit my grandparents(both sides) and reached home at 12.30pm.
this year is the earliest i reached home.
and CHU ER, i dont have to visit any.
MY HOUSE DONT HAVE THE CNY MOOD.
neither do i.
=.=
But let me blog about the present i received on wed from yongsheng.jamie.jasmine.jieyong.
the pressie they gave me is really a shock to me when i opened it.
HAHA. thanks guys!

WOOH!
nice box right?

my nick: WOOFY.
thats why they gave me this shirt.
LOL.

RED UNDERGARMENT.
oh im going to follow david beckham.
and wear this for advertisment.HAHA
wooh, sexy.

there writes: BE SAFE

Use protection

First thought that came to my mind is condomn.

but its not. its just a UV protection cream.

=.= HAHA. i got tricked.

and a dog toy. cute hur?
haha.

yeah. and later im going out with sec sch friends. we are celebrating three birthdays at one go.

RUNJIE : 7/2
ME: 8/2
BENJAMIN 10/2

2008-02-04T02:59:00.001-08:00

all right, i shall blog today.
haha, heard from benjamin that he wanna do a wish list in his blog.
our birthdays are coming.
and mine is on

8th of FEB

and last year birthday was really a bad time spent.
cos i rmbed the release of results is on 9th of feb
and on 8th, so many people nv go to school.
and everyone goes back home early.
and its a lonely one for me.
sad case.
but this year its gonna be different! (hopefully)

and all i want for my birthday is only one thing.
someone to wish me happy birthday.
haha.
ok. thats enough.

Wishlist:
1. birthday wishes
2. WALLET
3. WATER BOTTLE

if you realise, i have been using a wallet that i bought from india trip. it will be nice if someone give me a wallet as birthday present cos my current one cant hold coins.
>.<

simple birthday wishlist.

some phrase to share with all of you.

"your thoughts become things.
and your mind shapes the world around you."

from a book entitled, " The Secret"

that book totally has nothing to do with jay chou movie.
its just a name. :)

2008-01-28T01:58:00.000-08:00

life is really sad with this bad cough of mine.
i cant shout
i cant sing
i just realise fitness is deproving.
my 2.4 run today deprove.
pull up deprove.
standing broad jump deprove.
aaahhhh.
and cross country is up next month,
29/2
my aim is to get the top ten.
not sure whether its possible.
but with this fitness of mine and cough now, its certainly impossible.
>.<

i just realise something that i desire.
something that i yearn for so much.
but im just trying to stop myself.
argh.

you got to recover soon
you got to recover soon
you got to recover soon.

ok, im talking to myself. =.=

2008-01-20T20:58:00.001-08:00

im mute.
i cant speak. NO VOICE!
ARGHHHH!!!
help. help. help. help. help. help. help.

so when you speak to me in sch.
expect a soft and low disgusting voice.
damn it.
>.<

2008-01-20T20:58:00.000-08:00

cake time!

OG 27

S20 OGLS!

OG27!

haha, J1s are supposed to blindfold themselves.
look at her! haha, terrorist.LOL. and funniest part is when everyone find their way to the centre, and shes walking alone at the side of parade square. haha

ok, last friday was the OG potluck.
and its really good to see everyone so close and united.
haha.
the best part is when you can see a total change in them from the first day of orientation until now.
my OG ordered a cake, as you can see from the picture.
and best part is they smash the cake in my FACE!
and i look like i just had facial. haha.
wooh, cool!
and their results coming out soon..

and im now terribly sick.
its so sudden and i tink its the worst in my whole life.
the fever just wont subside.

2008-01-11T07:12:00.000-08:00

coming up next will be national vertical marathon.
66 storeys?
im not sure.
but i tink i have climbed that high before.
ok.
all the best for myself.
=)
JC life is like NO LIFE!
aaaaaahhhhhhh.

2008-01-10T07:28:00.000-08:00

i know i have no time to blog but im still gonna to.
orientation is over and we are all back to study.
but i feel damn jealous of what the J1s are going through now.
its PAE period and basically you just have to come to school and play and enjoy.
thats what PAE means ,PLAY AND ENJOY.
and for me, homework is never ending.
you finish a bit today, the teacher gives you a little more tml.
and can you believe it? we finish one chapter of maths tut and lecture this week. VECTOR.
>.<
homework is really alot.
everyday life is like preparing for exams.
is like chionging everyday already, but infact, our A level exams are still far awae. =.=

chinese new year please come quickly.
so that i can have a short break.
-.- SUFFER.

2008-01-08T02:56:00.000-08:00

OG 27 =D

2008-01-05T06:13:00.000-08:00

woooh, orientation is over. i really enjoyed myself for 08.
being an OGL, its really great to see how my OG mates bond tgt from the start of the day.
i still rmb the first day, everyone was like i don noe you, you don noe me, so lets just keep quiet and pretend that we enjoy whatever is happening.
LOL
the first day was all talks, and songs and cheers. they are really sian man.
they just dont sing, i still rmb me and yongsheng going ard, shouting and impacting the J1s.
haha. in fact, we should be singing, but we just got too high.
second day, i saw a total change in my OG!
they got so high and enthu for games. we did really great for our station games.
you see how they work tgt for each station, i saw the true teamwork and the bonds start to form btw them.
im happy. =)
during games, i tried to make them laugh.
when they appear sian and bored.
haha, it let me remind of luo zhi xiang.
i just learn from him, its just like hosting.
u are playing a game, its a matter of fact how u make it fun and enjoyable.
i make one of my OG mate do a forfeit, and the forfeit was, run into the field where the guys were playing soccer, grab the soccer ball and sprint to the goal post, kick the ball in and shout GOAL!!
haha. its damn funny.
during clan time, they look really sian. but at tthe D&D night, THETA rock the canteen lah.
our cheer become so solid and loud, everyone start to become so high.
its like out of a sudden!
we go really siao when cheering. ben shout until siao.
almost all OGLs lost their voice. haha.
cool! we start to jump ard and dance ard, hop ard in the parade square.
i really enjoy myself. and i feel this orientation is better than 07, PAE one.
and one of my OG mate told me that i look like someone.
i was like, sian alr. its either wilfred or someone in our sch
cos i heard such comments like so oftenly. everyone is saying i look like this and that.
and she said my OG says i look like huang zhi yang.
HAHA
pengz.
i told her, my singing better than huang zhi yang.
hahaha. ok. total crap.
after the D&D night, i felt like crying when i gave them small presents.
='(

and
its HOMEWORK TIME!
i seriously think that i can finish all in time. :)

went to receive bursary today. the MP said sth which is the only thing that grab my attention.

everyone have a goal.
if you dont work on your goal, your goal wont work on you.
if you dont work on your plan, your plan wont work on you neither.
you got to do sth.

YEAH! we got to do sth!
be focused.
then only you will be as powerful as a drill. =)